Sometimes comfort comes in unexpected ways.
For the past few days our boys have participated in a Sports
Camp at City of Refuge. CORM is hosting a missions team from America who have come to lead the camp. Our oldest four boys have enjoyed
their days. I have loved seeing them
arrive and immediately engage. Mason,
Franklin, and Weston quickly begin kicking the ball on a makeshift field while
Braden walks the perimeter whispering to Miracle about secret plans for the
club they have created. (They even have
a secret handshake.) All of the older
boys are enjoying their days here making new friends and doing new things.
However, Godwin is not.
He does not want to be here, and he has said so. He spent all day yesterday crying. I stayed with him thinking that would provide
comfort, but his tears still flowed. Yesterday he cried. He cried.
He wailed. He cried. Cheeks with paths made of tears peeked out
from under his hat all day. Because I
strongly felt this was something he needed to overcome, I sat with him through
nearly every session. The only time I
left him was during the indoor Bible lesson.
During this time, Godwin sat on Mason’s lap, too afraid to be without
someone from our family.
Today I realize my strategy was unsuccessful. Godwin did not “overcome.”
Tears have flowed this morning since our arrival. I stayed with him for the first hour, but
then left the field - honestly, because I was running out of compassion and
patience for his tears. Was he trying to
manipulate me? It felt like it.
As I finally walked off the field, a little boy named
Gabriel was close beside him. Gabriel
was recently rescued from a life of slavery on a fishing boat. As soon as he saw Godwin crying, Gabriel put his
arm around him and held his hand. I
looked down and saw Gabriel’s scarred hands and legs touching my son. It deeply stirred me.
Questions started running through my mind. How do these children comfort themselves when
they have no parents? How often must
they comfort each other? How often must
they comfort themselves? The fact that
this little boy, who currently speaks no English and has been a freed slave for less than a week, understands that the simple
act of putting his arm around Godwin would provide comfort was touching. I can learn a lot from Gabriel’s
compassion.
Dora, an older girl at came, just walked up here and told me Godwin is no longer
crying. I am praising God. Figuring out what is preschool fear, adoption
trauma, 4 year old strong-willedness, or Mommy manipulation is a task that
brings me stress. Guilt tries to plague
me with any decision.
So, while I am trying to complete some work on the computer
away from the Camp, I am thankful that Gabriel stays close to Godwin. I hope Godwin’s confidence will grow as he
continues to participate. The squeals of
delight carried by the wind tell me the children are having fun. I hope Godwin is making one of the squeals I
hear. If so, I am sure I have Gabriel to
thank for it.
Actually, this was Godwin's face at lunchtime.
I praise God that the God of all comfort, comforted him through Gabriel today!
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